Whats wrong with me? Psychic development concerns.

I recently received this note from a visitor to one of my sites:
” I have something to ask you. It started when I was in college this past year as a freshman. And I remember walking around campus one day and I felt this buzz from the back of my head, I want to say it felt like an small electric buzz like something was being unplugged from the back of my head. And later on the night I heard a mans voice tell me to get up and go see god. It sounded like a pastor or someone but he kept telling me to get up and stop what I am doing and go to him and not to waste my life.

So i was freaking out and went back into my dorm room to sleep but he came back again but this time he sounded like he was echoing in the room, like he was talking surround sound. I heard a woman crying which reminding me of my mother, and just a church of people crying, I felt like I was at my funeral but i wasnt freaking out too much because i was still trying to understand the sounds and figure out what was going on with me.

But after that I have been able to understand people and thier emotions without having to say much to them, I can look into a happy person face and see them crying on the inside and im always right. I sometimes speak on and on about something to someone about them and I will have no idea where it is coming from, the words are never my own thoughts but I am always right about that person and about how they feel and what they are going through? Do you understand what I am saying? I try to explain this to my friends and family and some get me but others say I lose them but I just need someone to tell me that they know what is going on with me please! “

This is another example of a question that I am able to answer in general terms. In others words, I am able to speak to the issue of psychic awakening. I will not fully address the issue of psychic development, ethic and self-protection in this post. For the best response to the question above, and for personal assistance, the author is advised to schedule a paranormal event counseling session with a qualified consultant.

From the contents of the letter, regardless of how the “awakening” or “opening” occurred… in this case a clear change in the energy column of the seeker, people open to clairvoyant ability in a number of ways. The important thing is that once this change has occurred; that being the change from the ability to live in “normal” attention to the the new ability to live in a state of heightened awarenss, decisions must be made.

To answer the questions “What’s wrong with me?”, under the circumstances reported, I would say nothing is “wrong” at all. In fact, many people hope to have this kind of experience to be better able to help others. Signs that something is wrong after an opening of this kind could be symptoms of depression, inability to focus, retreat from friends and family, inability to perform daily tasks, disorganized thinking, hallucinations.. or other behaviours that cause friends to comment with concern on new behaviours.

Fortunately, none of these symptoms are reported in the letter, so I am answering based on the assumption that the seeker is fully functional, and suddenly “blessed” with a new ability.

A second point must be addressed here, and this is my own preference.. a result of my own process of living a clairvoyant life.

Given this note:
” I sometimes speak on and on about something to someone about them and I will have no idea where it is coming from, the words are never my own thoughts but I am always right about that person and about how they feel and what they are going through?”
I do not offer information unless asked. I have found, for my nature and personality, that is is far better to wait for a client to order a session and ask me to “see” for them, than to volunteer my insights.

There are two reasons for this. The first is based on basic human nature… few people appreciate or follow “free advice” or unasked of advice. In Western culture this is often regarded as offensive or intrusive at best.. and insulting at worst.

The second, is that I want to be certain to do no harm. In my journey of “seeing” I have seen many beautiful things….. and many horrible things.. painful insults people have suffered in their past, events best not brought to light without careful consideration. I prefer to err on the side of caution, and to allow people to ask me what they want to know.

Finally, I have found that many people absolutely believe that psychism is false.. that it is not possible to see the future, have clairvoyant abilities and are prone to ridicule the gifted. So.. seeker, please take very good care of yourself. If people don’t “get” you.. perhaps is would be best to find a Spiritualist Church, or some other open faith where your gifts are seen as natural, and worthy of development.

For more information on this topic, please explore this blog.. or perhaps visit the Energy Healing section of my primary website.. Ann George Studios, Inc.

Angels, Demons, Spirits and Bad Luck. A question and answer post from the mystic point of view.

I have received another letter about paranormal concerns that I will respond to today. I have changed the name of the author of the letter, edited the content, corrected misspellings and typos a bit to protect that person’s identity. The tone of the note and the order of the questions is preserved to give the true flavor of the message.

I am sure other professionals will be able to offer comments to this post that are helpful to this seeker. This note is complex, presenting a number of questions and concerns. (I am not sure the author speaks English as a first language.) The concerns raised and the fears expressed in this email are not new to my practice. I publish this post hoping that others with similar concerns my benefit from my point of view on these matters.

“Hello am RJ and I have been looking for someone that could help me, although it has been hard. I am not sure if you could be the one that is able to help me find an answer to my problem.

I keep telling my self why me and why do I have spirits follow me? I am not sure if its one or two or how many,  but thats not the reason I am writing.”

My comment: My first observation is that the author seems to express real concern about being followed by spirits, then declares that this is not the problem that prompts the letter. However, in the next few sentences, the author again lists paranormal experiences as well as episodes of pre-cognition.

“The real reason is that I have been through a lot in my life. I want to make a new beginning. My family has been tormented for so long.

I started to see demons, spirits and angels as a child but I have no way of understanding the visions. Throughout my life I would sometimes receive warnings about danger that helped me at that time. Other times I would just have visions of the future that do take place.”

As I have never spoken to the author of the note, I am not able to determine “state of mind.” I therefore do not intend to personally address the writer of the note in this post. As I do not know the true tone of voice of the message, it would be irresponsible of me to do so. Through my filters, a message like this one  is written in a distressed tone of voice.

As the letter progresses, it seems clear that the author is in fact concerned with these visions, that these psychic experiences cause the author to feel different from others, to feel exhausted, like giving up, and ultimately “evil” for giving up (see below.)

“I try running away from it all. The problem with me is that even if i see good, evil follows me making my life miserable. Why does this happen? After everything I go through, at the end am fresh out of luck. After awhile I just gave up on my self.

My comment: It is often true that gifted people who see visions, whether those visions are of the future, the past, or spiritual beings, feel tormented. Many times, the gifted person has no control over when these kinds of experiences occur, no way to put them to good use, no one to talk to, and no frame of reference to make them feel OK, healthy or normal.

In American culture, clairvoyance has been radicalized.. that is to say, main stream media presents gifted people the option to be schizophrenic, possessed, evil, or rarely… very rarely, truly blessed with a spiritual gift. If we look to our history here in the USA, religious persecution of those who do practice faiths that allow for visions as a natural part of life has been the norm.

As mentioned in previous posts, it is my opinion that it is critical for the gifted person to have some emotional support, even if that is found in book. One of my first deep breaths in life happened when I read The Teachings of Don Juan: A Yaqui Way of Knowledge by Carlos Castenada. There, in print, was a world view that most matched my own experience, my own understanding of the world as a fabulous, magical experience full of possibilities.

That book, and others like it, helped me to see the world differently, and my place in it as more real, or normal. There was no one person in my early life that offered me the same validation as I found in those pages.

A second concern raised in the previous notes from the seeker is that of being “cursed”, followed by evil no matter what. It is my observation that when any person is plagued by unwanted intrusions, they can come to feel powerless, victimized, helpless.. really without hope for change for the better. It can therefore be quite easy to relate visions with bad luck.

I don’t think the ability to see angels, visions, or spirits of any kind creates a direct link to bad luck, that one gift is the direct cause of either being “followed by evil” or of having an unlucky life. However, as the seeker notes below,

“There is something from the past that just haunts my family tree. I know this is true, but I don’t know why? I would like to know my past life or anything that could help me.”

My reply continues:This comment is really so important that I will explore it more fully in a later post. For today, the issue of cause and effect, or karmic consequence is raised. Many great masters have written many fine texts exploring karma… action – and consequence. I do not intend to write about that. I refer you instead to a bookstore full of great works worthy of your attention.

Whether my reply is limited only to the idea that we do co-create our future by our past actions, or that families can create destructive dynamics that have unfortunate results for the children raised therein.. I am certain that we can change our future. We can purify our misdeeds, mental afflictions and bad habits. We can make the decision to start our life over at any moment in time.

Regardless of what has happened before, the world is constantly coming. What we experience today is the out picturing of past action ( whether of body, speech or mind.)

I will save for later a discussion on the existence of sorcerers who are so powerful as to be able to curse a lineage of people and will only note that this kind of person is a rare soul indeed.

“I try so hard to do right and so hard to do good, but it does not work. Now I see my self just as evil as anyone else in the world because of giving up on myself. All I want is to pick my self up and to have the same rights as normal people. I don’t want to lose my self. Please, if your able to give me not salvation but comfort I could at least know why.”

My Comment: It is my hope that the information here will be a comfort to the author of this e-mail. It is my belief, and the belief of many peoples and cultures that we have all been here before. That the idea of a past life is a valid concept. That we do come together again and again to learn & grow, hopefully to help each other become the very best people we can be.

Can I answer in this post the “Why” of this souls experience? Of course not. In readings, it is possible to see more clearly the causes and conditions that bring people to their present moment in time. It is possible to see the past & to offer guidance on how best to proceed.

It is my hope that this seeker first find a path to follow, then find a reader for more guidance. I first suggest that the seeker turn to faith, a spiritual teacher, a guru, a priest of a recognized practice for the solace they need.

Am I clairvoyant?

I received this email from a visitor to my site. As the question is not uncommon, I am posting my reply in this blog in hopes that the answer will help others.

“Weird things have been happening to me for years. I really need to put a name to the experiences  I  have been going through.  Sometimes I can see people that I know in my dreams and they might be going through a tragedy. I  can see them cryng and see exactly what they are wearing. The same people would come to my house the same day dressed just like in my dream crying because of a tragedy.  These are just a few of the things that I have been going throug for years. If you could tell me if you ever heard of this please explain it to me.”

Please first let me include a link to the topic of clairvoyance from Wikipedia. Clicking this link will take you to a page that offers a very good overview of clairvoyance in general. For an actual definition of clairvoyance,  I include a link to the term from the Merriam-Webster dictionary. Interestingly, another dictionary offers a similar definition with the preface, the “supposed” ability… so there does exist skepticism in print.

Thus, according to accepted definitions of the term, the author of this email is describing clairvoyant experiences.  Sometimes, the underlying question in e-mails like this one, and I do receive these kinds of letters regularly, is not at all about psychic or clairvoyant ability, nor about lucid dreaming, but rather the underlying question is: ” Am I loosing my mind?” or “Why is this happening to me?”

The first question, if it is a real concern should be asked of a qualified mental health professional… which I am not. However I am able to say that there really are many gifted people who have all kinds of lucid dreams, prophetic visions, pre-cognitions and do just fine.. function, pay bills, raise families and lead what American culture defines as successful productive lives. It is my pleasure and honor to know many gifted people.

As to the why of the gift, that answer is really quite a personal one, and best asked of a professional reader in a private session. Some people propose that there is a genetic abnormality that enables some people to be more sensitive. Quantum psychics offers fabulous and I think very useful insights into the power of mind. Some think the ability is just a common blessing that is the result of proper spiritual conduct from past lives.

I am happy to write more on this issue over time, or to engage in an online discussion if others care to post questions. I will reply as I am able. I hope this post is of some benefit.

With best regards,

Ann George